i have come a long way and it would not have been possible without some very specific people in my life.

below i have honored them in the best way i can.

TO, R.M., I.B., D.S., K.R., R.S.,

you fucks are some of the best people i've ever had the pleasure of meeting. thank you for your continued patience and respect for me and my goals. thank you for understanding me and taking the time to take me along even when it wasn't worth the trouble.

i think of our time spent in malls, in other countries, in school, in whereever other place we could loiter without trouble. and i think fondly upon those times. thank you all.

TO, J.A., P.P., W.K., E.L., J.G., AND OTHERS,

i appreciate our time spent together. all of you are wonderful. truly.

i still think about the first time we spoke J.A.. it was so random but i'm truly so glad you came to me of all people. you're a wonderful understanding friend and i hope that you feel the same about me.

and, to J.G., sorry we never got that band going. it's a lot of work isn't it?

TO, "AIN", "ZEPHYR", "SILVER",

you guys remember all that time we spent hanging around even though we couldn't see each other? we knew we couldn't really be there yet we tried anyways and i think in a way that void got filled just by us trying.

despite our circumstances you all became some of my closest friends. i trust each and every one of you with my life and i wouldn't be the same without any of you.

TO, "DIVINE",

i love you more than words could ever dare to express. thank you for always believing in me and giving me as much patience as i need.

i hope you know your love does not go unappreciated. in fact i believe your love is what keeps me going on many days when my sertraline refuses to put in that work. i apologize for every time i've ever wronged you and ever will wrong you. and i hope you can forgive me.

i'm so happy you're in my life. you are valued beyond gold, beyond diamond, and beyond the Universe. i love you.

TO, "MOM",

hi. you probably won't ever find this but if you do i just want to say that even if we don't agree on everything all of the time i appreciate you putting the time in for me anyways. you don't get it but you support nonetheless and i appreciate that so much.

TO, "REN", "ROAD", "SD", AND OTHERS,

i could never forget about any of you. we've been through so much together and i wouldn't trade any of you for anything.

and, to "REN", thank you for saving me that one night.

TO, EVERYONE ELSE,

i've known so many people that it's impossible for me to write something for everyone. i tried but i really am sorry that there are only so many words i can write so i'll write what i can.

thank you! thank you! thank you all!